Hi!! Well it seems as though I'm getting better at this blogging thing. Anyways, my life has been... well..... wonky. i did celebrate Valentines Day and it went well, in a slightly unexpected kind of way. the person for whom i spent Valentines Day with is leaving this year AGAIN, and that is upsetting. but it's for the best i suppose. Beyond that I'm gonna try to be healthier. (Keona, I know your reading this and i can practically feel the smile on your face) everything i have just feels unnatural and overly processed. I wish to get back to nature. That's one of the reason i took up archery; It was also to become stronger but that's a different story. My junior year of high school is almost over. i hate it. I want My friends to stay. I want HIM to stay (Don't you dare ask me any questions about HIM because i will not answer them. I'm talking to you Keona and LaToya and whoever else may be reading this.) but like i said its for the best. although he and I are just friends, okay more than that, he's my best friend and its messed up that he has to leave. I'm gonna try not to go back to that, although i have a feeling that i will. Oh well. School is School, and my life in the so called "real world" is about to begin and I'm gonna have forever right in front of me. one thing i don't understand is how people expect me to plan for forever. My future is uncertain and i don't want to make any "Forever" decisions right now. At least not unless i am 100% sure about it. I just want to make sure that it's what i want and not what someone else wants (MOM). In the end everything will be okay, if it's not okay then it's not the end.
Until Next Time,
M.
"If it's not okay then it's not the end". :)
ReplyDeleteI wish you the most amazing journey onto your natural life. It is fun. Sometimes complicated, but you learn a lot. It's most liberating!
As far as your Secret-Mr. Wonderful-Best friend goes, become pen pals ;)
And Life's Journey can be a hard one to figure, but dont worry so much about the absolute picture. Just let your heart be your compass. If you're ever unsure about something, it's probably wrong, and dont think so much about the picture, just see right whats in front of you.
Step by step. Day by day.
Left foot, right foot Miss M. ;)
E.O.